Tiger Cub

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“So this is what I will do. I will gather together my past and look. I will see a thing that has already happened. the pain that cut my spirit loose. I will hold that pain in my hand until it becomes hard and shiny, more clear. And then my fierceness can come back, my golden side, my black side. I will use this sharp pain to penetrate my daughter’s tough skin and cut her tiger spirit loose. She will fight me, because this is the nature of two tigers. But I will win and give her my spirit, because this is the way a mother loves her daughter.”  -Amy Tan, The Joy Luck Club

Love you so much sweet pea!

xoxo,

Mama

After The Party

A close friend of mine recently had a party. Here’s what happened afterward. My heart breaks for her. But I’m glad she’s ok.

image“How do you know when to let go?”

If you wait too long, the universe takes control and things get messy.

She emerged from the pool and the spell was broken.

So was her left arm, her right eye was bloody and split wide open.

He had been inattentive so he asked, “what happened?”

She stopped holding her breath and said, “this isn’t working, it’s never gonna change.”

And that’s when she flew away.

She left to keep from falling apart completely.

It was clear she needed to tend to her own wounds.

She stopped waiting for him to take care of her.

“It’s love that leaves and breaks the seal of always thinking you would be

Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go?”

-Tegan and Sara

 

How Flowers Grow

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Mommy when was this?

That’s me and daddy on our wedding day.

Before you were my mommy and daddy?

That’s right.

Then, when everybody got quiet I jumped out of mommy’s tummy and said, SURPRISE! and everybody clapped and they liked my dress and I twirled around and danced…

 

Oh age 3, how silly you can be!

I love you,

Mama

 

 

 

 

Fabulous

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 “These glasses make me look fab-ah-lous!” -Oliva age 3

To the Rabbit Hole

Here’s a glimpse of what the weekend looked like:

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No time to say hello goodbye I’m late I’m late I’m late! -The White Rabbit

Snapped this at the vineyard where Erik’s cousin exchanged vows. A beautifully rustic backdrop.

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I wish I shot a picture of the roof from the inside. Slats of wood where you could see daylight peeking through. Good thing rain is an exotic notion around here and clearly wasn’t a consideration.image

Never mind the exit sign, this is us upon arrival.

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Pausing for a quick family photo. I am so proud of hubby for taking this so seriously, without a peep from me. Can you believe his attire was more formal than the groom? I don’t know how to dress for weddings anymore. The trend is much more relaxed and casual it seems, “now you may high five the bride.”

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Sparkling apple juice for the littlest lamb. Father daughter dance before my iphone pooped out on me for the night:

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It occurred to me too late in the evening that there is such a thing as too much red wine and so I wasted half a day like so:

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Ugh. Embarrassing. What’s wrong with me? Was there a bride and groom you ask? Yes they were very beautiful and happy. You will have to take my word for it as I wasn’t able to snap a decent shot from my perch at the bar. Yes I’m exaggerating. Honestly, I’m a cheap date. It only takes two glasses of wine to incapacitate me for half a day. Which brings me around to this week’s posts. I usually take a day to draft a week’s worth of notes. That didn’t happen as planned as I’m sure you can imagine. I will do my best to stick to my Monday-Friday posts but it might be difficult to pull off as I’m behind. I hope you all had a great weekend! Looking forward to catching up with you.